The first few weeks, I was basically terrified. I was afraid that I wasn't doing a good enough job, afraid that Aiden was feeling left out, afraid that I would fail one or both of my boys and very afraid to leave the house with two kids. Well guess what? My first outing with two kids was a big fat fail. We all 3 left the park in tears that day, but looking back on it, it was my first step. Like the Little Blue Engine I had to tell myself, "I think I can, I think I can" over and over until I convinced myself to just go for it regardless of how it'd go. When you are faced with a new challenge, don't shrink back from it in fear, face it head on. You have to start by taking a small step and slowly your steps will become leaps.
While it's hard to always be needed, I have learned quickly to not feel defeated if every day is not Pinterest perfect, which it is NOT. If we stay in our pajamas all day, that's ok. If my baby cries for a few minutes while I hold my toddler, that's ok. If my toddler watches movies so I can breastfeed and play with my baby for a few uninterrupted hours, that's ok. If I have to bribe my toddler with jelly beans to get in his car seat, that's ok. I am not super mom and I am not ever going to do this whole parenting thing perfectly. It's better to just accept that and choose to accept God's grace when I mess things up.
Someone pinch me, I'm a mom of TWO!